scarves and hangers

edge of the bed
toes pushed into brown carpet
I feel Him today
pressing against my chest
tips of my fingers
corners of my mouth
hands up in the air
.revived.
The doors are waiting for me
to crack them open
and run
He whispers soflty
"don't worry about them,
it's you who can make the change
I have given you gifts
in which you have failed to open
conquer the fear that is in every pore of your skin
trust me
this love will never end"
I praise Him
cry for Him
dance in the rain
raise my hands up trying to grab His collar
"Just hold me," I cry.
All this time, he has held me
been in my presence
I haven't been true
but tomorrow the day is new