Exhausted.

I'm tired. So fucking tired. Every day is a battle with her. (We aren't even dating)

Yet for some reason we are fighting every single day and I don't know how or why. We broke up and are having the same problems we did when we were together.

I'm reading over a text from her that says "you are the definition of a cunt"

I just don't know anything. I don't know how to make things right..I don't know where to begin...

5

Steps backward.



5 fucking steps....

Alcohol

It really takes the pain away.

Turmoil

It's so fucking hard.

It's too much for me. I can't fucking sleep.........


why????

insane

Im good at looking at the walls. Walls never have any answers but I look at them as if they hold the key to everything.

Been watching a lot of the L word and realizing Jenny is fucking insane but in an odd way I see myself in her. I get her twisted mind. hm.

I miss having a lover. someone to kiss my forehead to graze my cheek.

It's so depressing. That is a major understatement.

Life is so hard to conquer. Itsfuckinginsane.